Getting up in the morning is hard. Everyday I set my alarm for 9 am because 9 am is a perfectly reasonable hour for an adult with things to do to get up. But I don’t have any appointments. This is the struggle of the unemployed/self employed/flexibly employed.
Everyday I have this conversation with two of the characters in my head.
“Your alarm is going off. Imagine, if you woke up now, you could get so much done. Get up, seize the day!”
“If you don’t get up, you’re a lazy person. Only lazy people lay in bed all morning. Do you want to be a lazy person?”
“Sticks and stones may break my bones. Lazy is just a word.”
“You are defined by your actions.”
“Ok, I’ll get up…oh look it’s 9:17. I’m going to reset the alarm for 9:30, 9:30 is a nice number.”
“Your alarm is going off.”
“Ok, really Kaytlin. It’s 9:39 now. Are you getting up? Cause if not, I need to rewrite your to-do list and schedule that I meticulously planned last night.”
“Well, instead of going to the gym this morning, you’ll have to go this afternoon. And that’s just one example.”
“You see why I’m not feeling super compelled right?”
“And that’s if you go to the gym at all!”
“What if I just lay here and hate myself? Can I get another 15 minutes of lying here in a puddle of guilt?”
Then it’s 11am, I wake up full of self loathing, regret, and shame. That’s how I start my day. Every. Single. Day.
This week in comedy. I found out I’m not going to the Laugh Track comedy festival in Colorado. It’s a disappointment, but not a deterrent. I performed, Tuesday, and I did two shows both Friday and Saturday night. And I got paid for every gig!
On Monday I went to class at DSI. We explored a theory of comedy called “benign violation.” This was my first exposure to an academic analysis of what it is comics do on stage. It’s fascinating. Up until now I’ve been throwing myself and my material on stage to see what sticks. I still believe that viscerally learning something about comedy is more powerful than blindly following another comics rules. But being able to bring those lessons to consciousness and giving them a name is also very powerful. Knowing that road maps exist, that comedy theory exists, that there are real tangible skills to master is very exciting.
On Tuesday I went to Flex. I finally got to hang out with a very talented young comic, Jenny Chalikian. On Friday and Saturday night I hosted two shows at Moxie’s comedy club in Statesville, NC. They paid me $25 for both nights and fed me. If you ever have the privilege to perform at Moxie’s, opt for the pasta bar, it’s delicious. Jared Stern featured, and Spanky Brown headlined. Jared and Spanky were both very supportive and fun to work with.