What makes a great show isn’t always the number of people in the audience, but just a sense of relaxed fun. No one is freaking out, and there is a roll-with-the-punches mentality. I envy this quality more than I envy anything else in another human being. I am frequently asked “why are you so stressed out?” only to reply, “I don’t know. Give me a minute, I’ll think of something.”
I’ve been called high-strung, type-A, bitchy, bossy, obsessive, and nervous. I’m calmer now than I’ve ever been. But at shows I produce, I adhere mostly to the “stomp around and look nervous” philosophy. This basically translates into “if you don’t look upset, you aren’t working hard enough.” I think I got that from my mom, or every movie about anything ever.
Anxiety is not the same as productivity. I know. I’m working on that.